The way forward

First of all I am sorry about the embarrassing drunk post from a few nights ago. A lot of emotional shit in there that surely does not belong in this normally up-beat blog. On the other hand I didn't feel like deleting it either when I read it again the next day. Hopefully a lesson not to post whiny bullshit when coming home drunk at 4 am.

Secondly, thanks for your comments guys. I appreciate your empathy.

But in the end it's not all that bad. I had a bit of a psychological problem. A couple of weeks ago my net winnings reached the $10.000 mark for the first time. Furthermore together with the staking money I suddenly had about $10.000 lying at my place too.

I started feeling a bit invincible and the bad things got worse and chain of unlucky occurrences hit me. I wasn't really prepared for it and couldn't cope with it. My offline bankroll is below the $1000 mark now, so I guess seeing more than $9000 disappear was quite painful. But I need to realise that I am not a professional. I don't rely on this money and to be honest I didn't even invest my own to get this money. Means there is no reason to be dragged down but some standard shit.

True is that Poker was not much fun for me lately and I actually forced myself to go and play as if I would need to in order to survive. This is of course bullshit.

I am going to take a break for a few weeks from Poker. It may most likely be 2 or 3 weeks but maybe it's going to be more. we'll see. I just want to refresh my batteries. Just as you said Marc, it's definitely going to help me.

I guess my girlfriend is going to like the next few weeks. Tonight, instead of going to the Casino I'll go down to the pool with her and drink a few beers. I may play the odd tournament once a week or so but I am not sure.

Anyway, what I wanted to say is, that all is good and I am feeling great. I come back to Poker in a few weeks.

I guess I will still be blogging regularly even without the Poker but probably about different life things.

Enjoy your summer folks, it's freaking beautiful outside I just realised.

Truthans